Deadly friends

What is the cause for your lack of sleep child? Is it because you finally realized you've bashed everyone you once trusted, because your thoughts are centered around your past, or is it because you feel yourself coming part at the seams? Do you crave that numbness that the prince and princess once coveted, that game of ghouls and goblins? That game of Russian roulette is dangerous, for if you play with demons you will never win. They will control the outcome of the game and trust me, they will not feel sorry when you are staring at your own blood. Do you miss the ones who you bashed? They probably will never see how much you cared for they Are too caught up in their own affairs to notice the blood dripping from every knife in your back. Angel of Innocence, Dark Princess, I hope you read this because its for you especially. How many times was I suppose to stand by while you took the knife from my back just to stab me again? How many times was I suppose to back up your lies with some made up truth from your heads? How many god damn times was I suppose to love you while you played me?! That's not friendship and its not what I want. All I wanted was friends and you can't even manage to do that right. Well I hope when the time comes, and you have to choose between yourselves and the girl crying with your knives in her hands, that you see her and realize I mean a little more than you think I do. And even if its too late, ill die with a smile on my face knowing you finally realized all I wanted was friends to lean on.