SILENCE

I open my mouth, words dangling on my tongue. Words... but none come out. They lock themselves in my mind and scream at the one i look at, but nothing surfaces. Just an empty look of emotionless sorrow, as i lock myself away inside my head. It seems that little habit i picked up on those years ago with the Dark Prince has finally come back to haunt me. That thing i use to do... sit there with so many words to say but not wanting to piss anyone off... it's not gonna go away. I can't risk losing anyone so i WILL sit here in silence, i WILL lock myself away because i don't want to say what i think. I can't... Can't you understand i'm broken and shattered beyond repair? I can't be saved like i saved you. I'm one of those people who drowns in their own mind and can't find the way out. Please save me... Don't let me be silent because i'm either tearing myself down or screaming. Please Angel... break these chains that bind my lips, those chains that break my bones at night and leave me broken. Stop the memories, the things that haunt me that i see but aren't really there. You can't see the ghosts i do. Stop me from drowning... because this time i might not resurface. I love you. Please take me.... take me away and show me your love. Stop the princess, the prince, everyone in my mind! Don't let her touch me, or hug me, or attempt to hold me. Stand in their way, be my knight in shining armor. I don't want to watch you leave if i speak. Please.... Save me.

Never land

Memories laying along the ground. Picking up piece by piece, trying to remember what goes together and what needs to be burned. Trying to remember why I ever believed a word that came through any of you demons mouth. Those words of love... Of care. If you cared then where are you? Why aren't you here to see if I'm ok? I guess it doesn't even matter if I were to tell you. The world will tilt and everyone will be ok but me. 

Unholy war

I always wonder why you try to tear everyone apart. Why do you demons of heaven and hell destroy those who stand beside you? Is it just too hard to destroy each other, and therefore in the process you have to drag us into the middle Angel of Innocence, Dark Princess, take your fight away from us. This is not about hate, or anger, but this is about secrets. Those tiny things you so called "best friends" talk about and keep hidden from one another. Well I've kept secrets from you both, I have my own mask to hide behind when you are both around. Don't show too much emotion, don't step out of line or face destruction. I think those things every day and keep them as a constant reminder of how screwed up we are. The three of us have a strained friendship and whenever one tries to pull away, the other two are pulled closer together before all the lines tying us together break. Angel, Princess, you both are pulling these strings and i hold the scissors, prepared to break us apart for the sake of my sanity and life. I need not be with you two if you are going to kill me in the process of killing each other. Dark Frost, freeze time with your shadowy powers, cloaking me long enough to escape. Dears, i will return, but only after only of you is left. I can no longer stand by and watch this unholy war between an angel and demon. This time, i will not be the cause of this fight, and i will not be the one to fall.

Fire and Ice

Fire from the fingers and tongues of those around, setting everything on fire. Ice from my fingers, turning into electricity from the static clinging to me. No matter how hard I try, no matter how loud I scream, my body and mind will not comply. I scream to be freed from this hell in which I live. I no longer wish to be frozen inside, I welcome the feeling of the electricity around me. But as my will and powers grow, so do the ones of those around me. Those who walk by me stare at me with a ferocity I've never seen before. The Dark Princess, the Angel of Innocence, those who I trust without question, all turn against me. I scream, wanting to be noticed and not alone. But as my loneliness grows, so does my anger. I ache to draw blood, to once again sink my teeth into the skin of my enemy, to smell the smoke of battle. They can no longer say this is my fault, for I have tried to get close to them. I've tried to tame the Dark Princess, to help her see the light of her mistakes. I've tried to save the Angel of Innocence from her imminent demise, but she has turned a blind eye. The king does nothing to help them, only hinder their progress. But I no longer care about him, for he is a fading memory of a time I consider long gone. Fallen Angel, please save me from this darkness in which I am being killed by. Bring me out of this place we both know so well, because you know what it does to people like us. My mind is becoming a dark place where only the things that keep me alive roam. Why am I here? Why can't I just be alone with you? That would make my life go back to what it once was, what WE made. Dearest Fallen Angel, let me use your wings to go away from here, to once again feel the warm sun on my skin instead of this cold ice like grip around my neck. Please... just for tonight hold me and don't let me go until the sun rises. Then, and only then, will I feel whole again.

Paradise nightmare

Inside your mind, drowning inside yourself. Seeing that damned mirror that reflects not what you see, but the things you refuse to see. You see yourself, under the skin, whether you are an angel, a demon, or anything in between. Even you, my many friends, cannot deny the truth behind this mirror. You, princess, see a demon who's wings are barely attached, your glowing blue eyes a wonder behind that mask of yours. That mask you so carefully keep track of, not wanting anyone to take it away. So you wear the clothing and the jewelery of your past lovers, never wanting them to leave you but hating the pain behind the memories. And you, oh lovely Angel of Innocence, not even you can look away from the hideous sight of your decaying flesh, those satanic nails that you retract  when your king is near. That king, the one you all fell for and died trying to love. But you, Angel of Innocence, you have that seductive nature. You alone have that power to change from your 'beautiful' angel wings and halo, to the seductive witch you are. 
Dark Frost, you my love, are not like the other harlots and demons that surround me. You are kind, gentle, willing to give when no one else will. You love me as i love you. Others can try to 'take' me but they never get anywhere. I will marry you, i will be your bride, Blossom and Dark Frost. We will be wed, we will leave this god forsaken place, and try to forget. Some things will never be forgotten though and i'm sorry for that. I cannot forget those first friends who took me in, who kept me safe and cared for me. Even if they are monsters now, i will always try to save them. So farewell my dears, i will write to you again.

Dumb child

So you strike again you dark demon. You write about me, expecting me to not know its me you speak of. Why? Do you think I'm dumb? An idiot? A stupid child who's never been tricked? You've tricked me time and time again, giving way from one personality to another. Saying you're my best friend at one time and then the next moment acting as if I'm not here. So my angel will have to make me forget you now? I don't want to forget you but maybe he's right. Maybe you aren't the person i thought you were- the person i wanted you to be. But maybe I'm judging our situation to fast. I don't want to be a queen for a night. I want to see under the mask you've so cleverly created. But if i were to look would i see one face or two? Would i see the person i once had a crush on, or the demon you now portray? My angel is mine, and i am his. I am not claimed by anyone but the person who i KNOW will stand by me forever. The person i will marry and soar through the skies with. So do not drag me to hell with you, that's one place i will not venture again. Could we truly talk about your life, about what's going on in your head, the mask that you now wear? Can we please talk about ANYTHING besides crap that no one gives a damn about? If not I can't help you. I want to help you, to bring you to the light and out of the grasps of these devils you have controlling you. But if you can't let me in, if you can't be that Dark Princess that i once believed in, I can't do anything for you. I will retreat the arms of my angel and fly away until you once again need me. Because as it seems right now, you don't need me. You don't care about me... But my angel does. And i love him with all my heart. 

Dear princess

My dear, how did you get so low? How did you become this demon damned to live amongst the shadows? I know the Dark Prince tricked you as he did to the rest of us. Must that hinder your progress in life though? Those ugly scars engrained along your collarbone, your hips, and your heart, are all unseen to the naked eye. Only those who look close enough and remember his destruction would understand the hell you've been through. Do I look like you my dear? No, I have not let his poison slow my system and destroy me from the inside out. I've let go of the memories as best I can. I will help you if it will erase the thoughts of him. Dark Princess, stop allowing the ones you LOVED to become the ones who kill you. The magician, the prince, that green eyes hero you speak so fondly of, those are the ones who will murder you in your sleep just to show you they have control. Don't let them control you anymore or be damned to eternal hell. If you ever need my help, I am here. I am here with my angel, ready to help fight your demons.